Well, first, before I tell you what I’ve decided, I had a great weekend. It was a good birthday. It didn’t feel like my birthday at all, I didn’t have time to think about it, so I guess that was a good thing. Who cares? Who says birthday’s have to be all about me anyway, I didn’t do anything to deserve it. So that’s that… Anyway, what I’ve decided is that it is really hard to have friends when you are a Youth Pastor’s wife. Here’s the kicker. These kids aren’t your kids, but everyone expects you to develop relationships with them. Now a normal parent has what? Anywhere from like 2 – 5 kids that they have. I have over 50 to make relationships with. Now, since they aren’t my kids, people say that the parent should be the one to worry about them or discipline them, or whatever parents are suppose to do, but yet, they expect me to have relationships with them, impact them and bring them to Jesus. But yet, you are suppose to be the adult and not feel like you have to befriend them… Here’s my problem, how in the world do I have time to develop parent-like relationships with kids I hardly know and still impact them? And no wonder I don’t have that many friends around here – I don’t have time for them, even if I did have people that wanted to be my friends…. I don’t know. I suppose I need to keep resting in the arms of Jesus. I can’t do it in my own strength. I do know that much. Relationships have to be the hardest part of life. Kids don’t need friends, that’s what people say, they need authority figures… Well, shhh, don’t tell anyone I said this, but someone forgot to tell the kids that! Automatically, I’m a bit shunned because of my age and authority – before I even open my mouth. So I have to try even harder to get into their lives and 50 of them compared to 2! Anyway, I suppose I’m feeling a little overwhelmed.
On another note, thanks for the cards. They were a welcome site when I got home. I got to sit on the front porch and read your wonderful cards that made me feel so special. Thanks for thinking of me from so far away! Well, Sam is about to go canoeing on the river…. so I have to run him somewhere… Then I need to finish up some work and head off to get blood drawn for another dr. visit on friday. Then I’ll have the whole afternoon to myself! So happy Wednesday to ya!